Jeremie's Girl

The Answers Within Me Come To My Awareness With Ease

2009-08-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
Change is the natural law of my life. I welcome change.
I am willing to change. I choose to change my thinking.
I choose to change the words I use.
I move from the old to the new with ease and with joy.
It is easier for me to forgive than I thought.
Forgiving makes me feel free and light.
It is with joy that I learn to love myself more and more.
The more resentment I release, the more love I have to express.
Changing my thoughts makes me feel good.
I am learning to choose to make today a pleasure to experience.
All is well in my world.

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What I put my attention on grows.

Fighting the negative is a total waste of time if I really want to make changes in my life.

The more I dwell on what I don't want, the more of it I create. The things about myself or my life that I have always disliked are probably still with me.

What I put my attention on grows and becomes permanent in my life.

I must move away from the negative, and put my attention on what it is that I really do want to be and have.

I must learn to think in positive affirmations. Affirmations can be any statement I make.

Too often I think in negative affirmations. Negative affirmations only create more of what I say I don't want.

Saying, "I hate my job." will get me nowhere. Declaring, "I now accept a wonderful new job." will open the channels in my consciousness to create that.

I must continually make positive statements about how I want my life to be. And I have to always make my statement in the PRESENT TENSE. "I am" or "I have".

LOVING MYSELF MAKES ME FEEL GOOD

It is impossible to really love myself unless I have self-approval and self-acceptance. This means no criticism whatsoever.

Self-criticism is just the mind going on with old chatter.

Self-approval and self-acceptance are the keys to positive changes.

All good begins with accepting that which is within myself, and loving that self which is me.

Good health begins with loving the self.

I APPROVE OF MYSELF!

When I have negative thoughts, I have to gently say to those thoughts, "I let you go; I approve of myself."

Negative thoughts have no power over me unless I choose to believe them.

Thoughts have no power over me unless I give in to them.

Thoughts are only words strung together. They have NO MEANING WHATSOEVER. Only I give meaning to them.

Part of self-acceptance is releasing other people's opinions.

Often what I think of as the things "wrong" with me are only my expressions of my own individuality. This is my uniqueness and what is special about me.

I am meant to be different. When I can accept this, then there is no competition and no comparison.

To try and be like another is to shrivel my soul.

I have come to this planet to express who I am.

I must think thoughts that make me happy. Do things that make me feel good. Be with people who make me feel good. Go at a pace that makes me feel good.

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I am happy.
I have a healthy, slender body.
I am loved by everyone in my life.
I love my home.
I enjoy my job.
I am an excellent student.
Learning comes easily and naturally to me.
I appreciate myself.
I approve of myself.
I accept myself.
I have a happy, healthy relationship with my husband.
I deserve the best and I accept it now.

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I deserve to have peace in my life, and I accept it now.
I deserve to have freedom from the past, and I accept it now.
I deserve to have self-confidence, and I accept it now.
I deserve to be an excellent student, and I accept it now.
I deserve to have the ability to obtain information easily, and I accept it now.
I deserve to have a strong, healthy, happy relationship with my husband, and I accept it now.
I deserve to have enough money to live comfortably every single day, and I accept it now.
I deserve to be loved, and I accept it now.
I deserve to be happy, and I accept it now.

I Cross Bridges With Joy And With Ease

2009-08-15T21:09:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
I see any resistance patterns within me
only as something else to release.
They have no power over me. I am the only power in my world.
I flow with the changes taking place in my life as best I can.
I approve of myself and the way I am changing.
I am doing the best I can. Each day gets easier.
I rejoice that I am in the rhythm and flow
of my ever-changing life.
Today is a wonderful day.
I choose to make it so.
All is well in my world.

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Sometimes when I try to release a pattern, the whole situation seems to get worse for a while. This is not a bad thing. It is a sign that the situation is beginning to move. My affirmations are working, and I need to keep going.

The Intelligence within me is the same Intelligence that created this entire planet.

I have to trust my Inner Guidance to reveal to me whatever it is I need to know.

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WHAT I WANT TO CHANGE
I don't know how to believe in myself. I want to believe in myself. To believe that I can do anything. That I can be anything! That I'm just as good and just as capable as anyone!

I now realize that I have created this condition, and I am now willing to release the pattern in my consciousness that is responsible for this condition.

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All I need is to be willing. The Universal Intelligence of my subconscious mind will figure out the hows.

Every thought I think and every word I speak is being responded to, and the point of power is in the moment.

The thoughts I am thinking and the words I am declaring at this moment are creating my future.

I am much more than my mind. I may think that my mind is running the show. But that is only because I have trained my mind to think in this way. I can also untrain and retrain this tool of mine. My mind is a tool for me to use in any way I wish.

The way I now use my mind is only a habit, and habits, any habits, can be changed if I want to do so, or even if I only know that it is possible to do so.

MY MIND IS A TOOL. I CAN CHOOSE TO USE IT ANY WAY I WISH.

The thoughts I "choose" to think create the experiences I have.

It is becoming easier for me to make changes.

There is an incredible power and intelligence within me constantly responding to my thoughts and words. As I learn to control my mind by the conscious choice of thoughts, I align myself with this power.

I am in control of my mind. I use my mind. I can stop thinking those old thoughts. I now choose to believe that it is becoming easier for me to make changes. I may have to have this conversation with my mind several times for it to acknowledge that I am in control and that what I say goes.

My mind will rebel at first. It does not want to be retrained. But I am in control, and if I stay focused and firm, in a very short time the new way of thinking will be established. I will feel so good to realize that I am not a helpless victim of my own thoughts, but rather a master of my own mind.

I am willing to let go. I release. I let go. I release all tension. I release all fear. I release all anger. I release all guilt. I release all sadness. I let go of all old limitations. I let go, and I am at peace. I am at peace with myself. I am at peace with the process of life. I am safe.

What I often refuse to realize it that holding on to the past -- no matter what it was or how awful it was -- is ONLY HURTING ME. "They" really don't care. Usually "they" are not even aware. I am only hurting myself by refusing to live in this moment to the fullest.

The past is over and done and cannot be changed. This is the only moment I can experience.

I now release the emotional attachment to the past. The memories are just memories.

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THINGS I AM WILLING TO LET GO OF
My past
Jeremie's past
The belief that I am not good enough
Anger
Resentment
Fear
Guilt
Blame
Regret
Hurt
Desire for revenge

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Forgiveness of myself and of others releases me from the past.

Forgiveness is the answer to almost everything.

When I do not flow freely with life in the present moment, it usually means I am holding on to a past moment.

Love is always the answer to healing of any sort. And the pathway to love is forgiveness. Forgiveness dissolves resentment.

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The person I need to forgive is my dad and I forgive you for violating me and hurting me in the ways that you did.

The person I need to forgive is my mom and I forgive you for not accepting me for who I am and for not believing me.

The person I need to forgive is Jeremie and I forgive you for breaking my trust and for hurting me in the ways that you did.

The person I need to forgive is Molly and I forgive you for having no respect for me or Jeremie or our relationship.

The person I need to forgive is Bragg and I forgive you for letting it go too far and for not caring about who you were hurting.

The person I need to forgive is Karla and I forgive you for how unprofessional you were and for not considering my feelings.

The person I need to forgive is Tony and I forgive you for being SO ugly to me and for disrespecting me and treating me like I didn't matter.

I forgive myself for losing my virginity to a married man.
I forgive myself for all the one night stands I had.
I forgive myself for being "that" girl.
I forgive myself for all the hurtful things I have ever said to Jeremie.
I forgive myself for what happened after Jeremie and I broke up.
I forgive myself for hating Molly.
I forgive myself for hating Bragg.
I forgive myself for not loving myself.

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There is so much love in my heart that I could heal the entire planet. But just for now I am going to use this love to heal myself.

I Am I The Rhythm And Flow O Ever-Changing Life

2009-08-12T18:50:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
I now choose calmly and objectively to see my old patterns,
and I am willing to make changes.
I am teachable. I can learn. I am willing to change.
I choose to have fun doing this.
I choose to react as though I have found a treasure
when I discover something else to release.
I see and feel myself changing moment by moment.
Thoughts no longer have any power over me.
I am the power in my world. I choose to be free.
All is well in my world.

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Awareness is the first step in healing and changing.

When I have some pattern buried deeply within me, I must become aware of it in order to heal the condition.

The process began the moment I began to think about making a change.

Impatience is only another form of resistance. It is resistance to learning and to changing. When I demand that it be done now, completed at once, then I don't give myself time to learn the lesson involved with the problem I have created.

Now is the time to acknowledge my responsibility in having created the situation or condition. Acknowledge the "power with-in me" that transforms my every thought into experience.

In the past I unknowingly used this power to create things I did not want to experience. Now, by acknowledging my responsibility, I become aware and learn to use this power consciously in positive ways for my benefit.

If things are easy for me, then they are not lessons, but are things I already know.

If I think of the hardest thing for me to do and how much I resist it, then I'm looking at my greatest lesson at the moment.

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WAYS THAT I RESIST

Nonverbal Clues:
I leave the room
I look away, or out the window
I refuse to pay attention
I chew on the skin around my finger nails

Beliefs:
I can't do it
I don't know how
It's too expensive
It will take too long
I'm not that kind of person

Them:
He needs to change first
They need to apologize

Self Concepts:
I'm too lazy
I'm too weak
I'm too scared
I'm too angry

Delaying Tactics:
I'll do it later
I can't think right now
I don't have the time right now
As soon as I have the money
As soon as I finish school

Fear:
I might fail
They might reject me
I might get hurt
I may have to change
It's too hard to do
I don't have enough money
I might lose my husband
I don't trust men
I'm not good enough

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Mirrors reflect back to us our feelings about ourselves.

The most powerful way to do affirmations is to look in a mirror and say them out loud. I am immediately aware of the resistance and can move through it quicker.

Repeated patterns show my my needs

For every habit I have, for every experience I go through over and over, for every pattern I repeat, there is a NEED WITHIN ME for it. The need corresponds to some belief I have. If there were not a need, I wouldn't have it, do it, or be it. There is something within me that needs whatever there is that's a problem for me.

WHAT ARE MY HABITS -- THINGS I CAN'T STOP DOING AND SAYING
Bringing up Jeremie's past
Saying unkind things to Jeremie to belittle him
Digging into Jeremie's past
Obsessing over Jeremie's past relationships
Blaming Jeremie for my bad moods
Getting angry
Holding grudges
Expecting perfection form myself
Being terrified of failure
Telling myself that I can't
Trying to please everyone
Looking for acceptance and approval from others
Blaming my parents for my screwed up life
Feeling unworthy

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I AM WILLING TO RELEASE THE NEED FOR
Bringing up Jeremie's past
Saying unkind things to Jeremie to belittle him
Digging into Jeremie's past
Obsessing over Jeremie's past relationships
Blaming Jeremie for my bad moods
Getting angry
Holding grudges
Expecting perfection from myself
Being terrified of failure
Telling myself that I can't
Trying to please everyone
Looking for acceptance and approval from others
Blaming my parents for my screwed up life
Feeling unworthy

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Whatever I am trying to release in my life is just a symptom, an outer effect. Trying to eliminate the symptom without working on dissolving the cause is useless. The moment I release my will, power or discipline, the symptom crops up again.

There must be a need in me for this condition, or I wouldn't have it. When the need is gone, I will have no desire for the negative pattern.

The webs I create around myself need to be unwound. It's like a ball of string. I need to very gently and patiently unravel the knots. I need to be gentle and patient with myself as I untangle my own mental knots.

The willingness to let go of the old is the key. That is the secret.

Every outer effect is the natural expression of an inner thought pattern.

The way I was treated when I was very little is usually the way I treat myself now.

What was done in the past is done, and it is over now.

This is the present time, and I now have the opportunity to treat myself the way I wish to be treated.

When the child within feels unsafe, it creates a lot of problems.

I must be kind to myself. I must begin to love and approve of myself.

I See My Patterns, And I Choose To Make Changes

2009-08-10T21:01:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
I no longer choose to believe in old limitations and lack.
I now choose to begin to see myself
as the Universe sees me -- perfect, whole, and complete.
The truth of my Being is that I was created
perfect, whole, and complete.
I will always be perfect, whole, and complete.
I now choose to live my life from this understanding.
I am in the right place at the right time, doing the right thing.
All is well in my world.

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It's a foolish reaction to waste my time only getting angry. It's also a refusal to perceive life in a new and different way.

How am I creating so many situations to get angry at?

What am I believing that causes all these frustrations?

Whatever I give out comes back to me.

The more I give out anger, the more I am creating situations for me to get angry at.

I must change inside. I must change my way of thinking, change my way of speaking, change my way of expressing myself. Only then will the outer changes occur.

Each old layer must give way in order to be replaced with new thinking.

The more tenaciously I hold on to an old belief when I say I want to make a change, the more I know this is an important one for me to release.

I am willing to change.

Where I DO NOT WANT TO CHANGE is exactly the area where I NEED to change the most.

The Universal Intelligence is always responding to my thoughts and words.

I am willing to release all resistance.

Mirror work is very powerful. To look myself straight in the eye and make a positive declaration about myself is, the quickest way to get results with affirmations.

Truth Is The Unchangeable Part Of Me

2009-08-08T21:59:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
The past has no power over me
because I am willing to learn and to change.
I see the past as necessary to bring me to where I am today.
I am willing to begin where I am right now
to clean the rooms of my mental house.
I know it does not matter where I start,
so I now begin with the smallest and the easiest rooms,
and in that way I will see results quickly.
I am thrilled to be in the middle of this adventure,
for I know I will never go through
this particular experience again.
I am willing to set myself free.
All is well in my world.

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Whatever I choose to believe becomes true for me.

Whatever the problem is, it comes from a thought pattern, and thought patterns can be changed!

No matter how difficult an issue I am dealing with, it is only an outer result or the effect of an inner thought pattern.

Usually what I believe is only someone else's opinion I have incorporated into my belief system.

Whatever I send out mentally or verbally will come back to me in like form.

The Point of Power is always in the present moment.

I am never stuck.

I am the only person who thinks in my mind! I am the power and authority in my world!

My thoughts and beliefs of the past have created this moment, and all the moments up to this moment. What I am now choosing to believe and think and say will create the next moment and the next day and the next month and the next year.

I am the power in my world! I get to have whatever I choose to think.

My mind creates my future.

The Past Has No Power Over Me

2009-08-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
I am always Divinely protected and guided.
It is safe for me to look within myself.
It is safe for me to look into the past.
It is safe for me to enlarge my viewpoints of life.
I am far more than my personality -- past, present, or future.
I now choose to rise above my personality problems
to recognize the magnificence of my being.
I am totally willing to learn to love myself.
All is well in my world.

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The real problem is: I feel I am not good enough, and there is a lack of self-love.

I am always perfect, always beautiful, and ever changing.

I am doing the best I can with the understanding, awareness and knowledge I have.

As I gain more understanding, awareness and knowledge, then I will do things differently.

There is no reason to get angry in order to clean a room. It is the same thing when I am cleaning my mental house.

Would I really dig into yesterday's garbage to make tonight's meal? Do I dig into old mental garbage to create tomorrow's experiences?

If a thought or belief does not serve me, let it go! There is no written law that says that because I once believed something, I have to continue to believe it forever.

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NEGATIVE MESSAGES FROM MY PARENTS
They always told me that I'm selfish.
My dad looked me up and down like a piece of meat.
My dad criticized my mother's body all the time. She was never skinny enough.
My mother always said, "Money doesn't grow on trees."
My dad said, "The kind of underwear a girl wears is the kind of woman she is."
They never told me that they were proud of me.
"Keesha, you always have to walk the line. See just how much like the "world" you can be."
I said that I wanted to be a professional photographer. My dad laughed and said, "You can do better than that."
They always told me that I needed to put others first and myself last. If I wanted to be happy, then I needed to put others first.
They didn't have to say anything about relationships. All I had to do was watch theirs, and I knew that a man will only love you if you have a perfect body. All wives do is bitch at and nag their husbands. If a man doesn't get it from his wife, he'll go somewhere else to get it.
I never met up to their standards. I was never good enough.
"Keesha, it is your responsibility to dress modestly, so that you don't temp a man to lust after you."
The man is the head of the home. Wives must submit to their husbands.
In order to be a "good Christian", you have to go to church whenever the doors are open. You have to read your Bible and pray every single day.
My mother would always scold me when I'd spend money on myself. She'd tell me that I was wasting my money, and that I should be more responsible.
I was never taught to be an individual. I was taught to be dependent on a man. "Go ask your father." "Go ask your father."
I was taught that if you don't say thank you and tell someone how much you appreciate what they've done for you, that you're ungrateful.
In a way, I was taught to hide my talents, because no one wants to hear racket. "Keesha, play quieter. You're making too much racket."
My mother hated my aunt because she "thought" my aunt was smarter than her. My mother "felt" inferior to her, so she couldn't stand her.
I was terrified to make a mistake or to fail, because I would either get spanked as a child, grounded as I got older, or worse yet, daddy would shut me out for weeks at a time!
Nobody ever just talked issues out or discussed things in a civil manner . . . everyone always screamed and yelled and blew up about the issues.
Daddy was always right. Period.
Daddy got the best of everything. We weren't aloud to have the things daddy had. We felt lucky and privileged if he shared with us.
Daddy cared more about his toys than he did about our safety. If we wrecked a snowmobile, he only cared about the damage that was done to it . . . not us!
I learned from my father that I cannot trust men. Men only want one thing from a woman. And he will use and abuse her for HIS pleasure.

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NEGATIVE MESSAGES FROM OTHER PEOPLE
My grandma told me once that I was a show off.
A church member told me that I think I'm better than everyone else.
My grandpa would always say, "How are you?" If I said, "Pretty good." He'd say, "You ain't pretty and you ain't good."
It was either my dad or my grandpa who would ask the trick question. "Do you think you're pretty?" If I answered "yes", then I was being vain and arrogant. If I answered "no", then I was obviously lying and trying to be humble, because I "knew" that I was pretty. And also, if I said "no", then I was saying that God made a mistake.
I was taught one religion. And if I don't live my life according to what "that" religion believes, then I will go to hell.
My uncle always flirted with me and would say inappropriate things to me about my body. So again I learned that a man only wants a woman with a perfect body.
The physical part of a person, mostly women, is the most important thing!
The religion that I was brought up in portrayed God as a mean, angry God. A God that is out to get you. He was not very nice. And definitely not loving.
I watched my family judge and criticize people every single day.
My aunt would always tell me that I needed to dress modestly and not draw attention to myself in an ungodly, worldly way.
Actually, I think everyone in my dad's family, except for my uncle maybe, at one time or another told me that I needed to dress more modestly and that I was responsible for not causing men to be tempted to lust.
My grandma always said, "Children are to be seen and not heard."
She would always tell me to act like a lady. As if it wasn't okay for me to be me.
My sister never wanted me hanging out with her and her friends. She always made me feel like I was too little and definitely not wanted. She would get angry if her friends liked me. I always felt like her friends were more important than I was.

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I base my life script on my early messages.

Blame is one of the surest ways to stay in a problem. In blaming another, I give away my power.

The past cannot be changed. The future is shaped by my current thinking.

It is imperative for my freedom to understand that my parents were doing the best they could with the understanding, awareness, and knowledge they had.

Whenever I blame someone else, I am not taking responsibility for myself.

Those people who did all those terrible things to me were just as frightened and scared as I am. They felt the same helplessness as I do. The only things they could possibly teach me are what they had been taught.

Understanding brings compassion. I need this knowledge for my own freedom. I can't free myself until I free them. I can't forgive myself until I forgive them.

If I demand perfection from them, I will demand perfection from myself, and I will be miserable my whole life.

I chose my parents. The parents I picked this time around are the perfect couple who are "experts" in what I have chosen to learn.

I am on an endless journey through eternity.

I come to this planet to learn particular lessons that are necessary for my spiritual evolution.

It Is Safe To Look Within

2009-08-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
I believe in a Power far greater than I am
that flows through me every moment of every day.
I open myself to the wisdom within,
knowing that there is only One Intelligence in this Universe.
Out of this One Intelligence comes all the answers,
all the solutions, all the healings, all the new creations.
I trust this Power and Intelligence,
knowing that whatever I need to know is revealed to me,
and that whatever I need comes to me
in the right time, space, and sequence.
All is well in my world.

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The words I speak are indicative of my inner thoughts.

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I SHOULD
Forgive Jeremie for his past. And for hurting me.
Stop blaming my parents for who I am today.
Stop expecting perfection from myself.
Compliment myself more often.
Believe in myself.

WHY
Because his past has nothing to do with me. And everyone deserves forgiveness.
Because I can choose today, who I want to be . . . today.
Because no one is perfect. And it should be okay to be exactly who I am.
Because I am just as good of a person as the people I freely compliment every day.
Because if I don't believe in me . . . then who will?

IF I REALLY WANTED TO I COULD
Forgive Jeremie for his past. And for hurting me.
Stop blaming my parents for who I am today.
Stop expecting perfection from myself.
Compliment myself more often.
Believe in myself.

WHY HAVEN'T I
Because I don't know how to.
Because it's easier to blame someone else.
Because I was taught to be perfect. It's all I know.
Because it feels like I'm being arrogant and conceited.
Because my parents never believed in me. I never learned how to.

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What I give out, I get back.

The point of power is always in the present moment.

Loving myself works miracles in my life.

Loving the self is not about vanity or arrogance or being stuck-up, for that is not love. It is having a great respect for myself and a gratitude for the miracle of my body and my mind.

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I CAN FEEL LOVE FOR
My husband
The sun and it's warmth
My wonderful friends
Compassion and kindness
Food
The air I breathe
The music that lives in my soul
My kitty
The beauty that's all around me
My new found hope

WAYS I DON'T LOVE MYSELF
I don't believe in myself
I tell myself that I can't do things
I think that everyone else is better at everything than I am
I always feel guilty when I do something nice for me
I criticize everything I do or don't do
I look at other people and wish that I could be more like them
I call myself ugly names and put myself down

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Lack of self -worth is another expression of not loving ourselves.

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HOW DO I EXPRESS MY LACK OF SELF-WORTH
I don't get the good shifts at work. I wonder what I'm doing wrong.
Someone doesn't like me as much as they like someone else. I wonder what's wrong with me.
I learn at a slower pace. I feel like an idiot.
A pretty girl walks by. I wonder if my husband thinks she's prettier than me.
I don't have the perfect body. I feel like I'm not good enough.
Someone leaves me a shitty tip. I automatically wonder if I did something wrong.
I don't want to try new things. I'm afraid I'll fail.

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The only diet that does work is a mental diet -- dieting from negative thoughts.

Loving the self begins with never, ever criticizing myself for anything.

The central issue: I have learned to believe that I "am not good enough."

"The Gateways To Wisdom And Knowledge Are Always Open."

2009-08-02T16:57:00.000-07:00

In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole, and complete, and yet life is ever changing. There is no beginning and no end, only a constant cycling and recycling of substance and experiences.
Life is never stuck or static or stale, for each moment is ever new and fresh.
I am one with the very Power that created me, and this Power has given me the power to create my own circumstances.
I rejoice in the knowledge that I have the power of my own mind to use in any way I choose.
Every moment of life is a new beginning point as we move from the old. This moment is a new point of beginning for me right here and right now.
All is well in my world.

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Love is everywhere, and I am loving and lovable.

I am WILLING to forgive.

I forgive you for not being the way I wanted you to be. I forgive you and I set you free.

The very person I find it hardest to forgive is the one I NEED TO LET GO OF THE MOST.

Forgiveness means giving up, letting go. It has nothing to do with condoning behavior. It's just letting the whole thing go.

When I really love and accept and APPROVE OF MYSELF EXACTLY AS I AM, then everything in life works.

Loving and approving of myself, creating a space of safety, trusting and deserving and accepting, will create organization in my mind.

Self approval and self acceptance in the now are the main keys to positive changes in every area of my life.

The new girl

2007-12-19T07:37:00.000-08:00

So...this is my first time on a blog, of this nature. It's pretty nifty!

I'm pretty much just checking it out...figuring out how the whole thing works.

And my main reason for creating my own, is so I can stay updated on my nephew!

Isn't he precious! (That wasn't a question!) I completely adore the little man!

It may be a while before I get pictures on here, as I do not have a internet access at home.

But who cares anyways...pictures of me are not nearly as exciting as pictures of Caedmon!

Okay...I'm out. Just thought I'd give this a whirl!

If you know me, say hello! Especially since I'm the new girl! It sucks being the new girl!